my new favorite song... which, by the way, is wonderful when Mark sings it to me...

Honey you are a rock
Upon which I stand
And I come here to talk
I hope you understand

That green eyes
Yeah the spotlight, shines upon you
And how could anybody deny you

I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter
Now I met you
And honey you should know
That I could never go on without you
Green eyes

Honey you are the sea
Upon which I float
And I came here to talk
I think you should know

That green eyes
You're the one that I wanted to find
And anyone who tried to deny you
Must be out of their mind

Because I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter
Since I met you
And honey you should know
That I could never go on without you

Green eyes
Green eyes
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooh ooh ooh ooh

Honey you are the rock
Upon which I stand

-Coldplay "Green Eyes"

"UNLESS someone like you
cares a whole awful lot,
nothing is going to get better.
It's not."
-Dr. Seuss "The Lorax"

lately i've been thinking about the upcoming presidential election... this is the first time i will get to vote... and i don't want to screw it up! hehe as most of you know, i am a democrat, but i have serious problems with the whole abortion issue. God is the giver of life... therefore He should be the only one who decides when to take it away. it's hard for me to vote for someone who is pro- choice, but Mark brought up a good point... is it really a political issue anymore? is it really going to change anything if someone makes a law prohibiting it? i seriously doubt it... and honestly think it will only cause more problems. today i was reading the "Seuss-isms" book that katie got me last year. (i LOVE Dr. Seuss!!!) when i read the quote up there, i began thinking about all of this again, and i decided that i really need to volunteer at the crisis pregnancy center in Bloomsburg this summer. i had kinda been planning on doing that anyway, but now i've realized that i need to stop talking about loving people and having an impact on their lives and start doing it. so here i go...

i had such a great weekend! mark came up to visit yesterday. we spent most of the day with my friends and family, which was wonderful. they really really like him, and i'm pretty sure he really likes them too. after mark left last night, my father came into the house with a big smile on his face and said "i like this one" and winked... for those who don't know my father... that is a big deal. i can't express how great that moment was for me... my daddy likes him... *sigh* one of the things that i like the most about this is that it makes sense in my head... not just my heart. it is so different from anything i've ever experienced before... i didn't know that anyone could treat me as well as he does. what a blessing! (thank you, sweetheart)

this morning greg's band did worship for our church... they played my favorite song...

Lord of all creation
Of the water, earth and sky
The Heavens are your Tabernacle
Glory To the Lord on high

God of wonders
Beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe
Declares your majesty
You are holy, holy

Early in the morning
I will celebrate the light
And when I stumble into darkness
I will call your name by night

God of wonders
Beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe
Declares your majesty
You are holy, holy

Hallelujah (to the lord of heaven and earth)
Hallelujah (to the lord of heaven and earth)
Hallelujah (to the lord of heaven and earth)

Holy, holy
Holy, holy

God of wonders
Beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy

Precious Lord,
Reveal your heart to me
Father hold me, hold me

The Universe
Declares your majesty
You are Holy, Holy
Holy, Holy

Hallelujah to the lord of heaven and earth

what a great song...

*sigh*... what an awesome night... i am so blessed... i don't deserve this... but i thank God for it... i can't wait to see what the future holds...

yay! i got the job! but i must tell you the dumb story...
when i filled out the application, i put my school phone number on it cuz i was going to be there for 3 more weeks. so this morning i wake up and think, "oh my soul! i didn't give them my home phone number!!!" so i immediately get out of bed and call. good thing i did! kim called school yesterday to offer me the job! i felt so dumb. *rolls eyes* i can be such a blonde sometimes!

it's been a while... i know... i'm sorry... i'm sure you're all just dying to hear what i have to say...

it has been a crazy couple of weeks... also an exciting couple of weeks... i can't wait to see what the future holds...

so finals are over... WAHOO!!! i can't believe i've finished two years of college already! what a good feeling! it is so good to be home! i miss my katie patatie though... i'm so used to telling her all the silly things that happen to me... and now when i walk into my room... she isn't here... and when i go to bed at night i don't wonder what crazy thing she's going to say in her sleep. hehe so i guess i'll have to go visit good old sinking spring soon! then i can go see my lil' cuban too!

well... i've been putting off unpacking long enough... so i'm gonna go get on that. i hope everyone is well... millersville buds... i miss you guys bunches!!! can't wait to see ya! much love...

why is it that only former football players get special recognition for dying for their country?!? this makes me so angry. millions of soldiers die every day. why don't they get recognized? well, as the newspapers put it, because they didn't "walk away from a million dollar career". it makes me sick that this man's money is of more importance than the families that he, and other soldiers left behind. how did we get like this???

i have this habit of worrying about the future... my career, family, yada yada. i always want to know exactly what is going to happen and when. i often allow myself to become pretty stressed by all this worrying, but today i am reminded that God is in control and His will and timing are perfect. i read this passge from isaiah today...

"Why do you say, O Jacob, and complain, O Israel, 'My way is hidden from the Lord; my cause is disregarded by my God'? Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint"
-Isaiah 40:27-31

it's so comforting to know that my God is more powerful than i could ever comprehend... today i am going to rest in His arms, and in the truth that He is in control...

here's a good quote i found today...

"Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God's kindness: kindness in your face, kindness in your eyes, kindness in your smile."
-Mother Teresa

ugh... it's already sunday night again. what a bummer. i had a great weekend, though...

on friday afternoon katie and i went to the park to swing. we decided that no matter how old we get, we will never stop swinging! then on friday night i hung out with jess, eric, kyle, and mark from church. we watched "the bourne identity" at eric's house, then went to applebee's for half-price appetizers after 10. i'm pretty sure they weren't actually half-price, though. i never got to see the check cuz mark paid for us... he's a nice guy... despite all the "women are always wrong" comments. i really enjoyed hangin out with those guys. it was the most fun i've had in quite a while.

while i was at eric's on friday night, kate called to inform me that there was a half-naked drunk guy wandering the halls of our dorm. that's never really something i want to deal with, but especially not when i'm coming in at 2 in the morning. i was so paranoid... when i went into my room i looked under the beds and in the closets to make sure no one was in there. haha... i'm a dork.

after brunch on saturday, i went outside to do some work. it was so nice to be out in the beautiful weather! i actually got some sun, too! i know... it's amazing! later i watched "office space" with kate, bryan, kenny, sarah, and bryan. i love that movie so much. we had been talking about it a lot over the past couple weeks, so we decided it was time to watch it again.

today i went to church, took a nap, and was esentially useless the rest of the day. i have a lot of work to do, but i was completely unmotivated.

well, on that note, it's time for me to go to bed. g'night all...

ugh... rough day... i wish it would stop...

what a crazy day! it involved some crying (which i REALLY hate to admit)... but good things happened, and that makes me happy. i'm still frustrated and confused... but things seem to be going in the right direction. maybe it's because of that "good ol' irish hug" from niall.

an article on the new york times website gave me a little perspective tonight. the title of the article is, "Up to 12 Marines Die in Iraqi Raid on Base". what right do i have to complain about how my life is going right now? there are people fighting and dying for the freedom and peace of people they don't even know. how can i see that kind of suffering (especially after being so closely related to it at one time) and complain about my trivial discomforts? God, bring your peace...

my current status: tired and frustrated.

i've definitely got a "case of the mondays"... or maybe it's something more. who knows, but i don't like it, and it needs to go away.

i just checked out another link katie just added to her blog... hilarious. it's called, Book A Minute. you should totally check it out. you might as well just use the link i have to her blog and check out all the randomness she has accumulated. it's some seriously funny stuff!

i was just telling kate that today is such a "nap all day" day. i would LOVE to lay down for a nice long nap right about now, but sadly, i have a meeting with my advisor at 3 o'clock. meanwhile, i'm sitting here playing with silly putty. i'm seriously addicted. it's a problem.

ok, well that's all i'm thinking right now that's worth saying... if that, in fact, is worth saying... anyway, i hope everyone is having a great day!

30 days til i'm outa this place for the summer! good heavens, i cannot wait! i have soooo much to do in those 30 days, though... it's gonna be rough. i have an 8 page philosophy paper due the 6th, a 10 page scotish lit paper due the 29th, a 5 page lit paper due the 26th, 2 essay finals, a regular final and one more book to read. ugh! i will be so happy when this semester is over! i'm getting pretty stressed out... it's getting to the point where everything... and i mean everything... is hysterical to me. i laugh at virtually nothing for extended periods of time. ask the roommate... she knows.

at church tonight we were talking about hell... and what it is. the Bible describes it as a lake of fire and eternal separation from God. somebody pointed out tonight, that everything good comes from God, and since hell is the absence of God, there is NOTHING good in hell... forever. that's kind of a scary thought... boy, am i glad i never have to experience that...

ok... and i have to add... i love my mia.

well... today was definitely a better day. i decided that i'm going to take that night class this summer, so i'll be able to work at the bank... that is, if they hire me. (but i'm not going to worry about that!) i wrote a letter to them today asking if they had any positions available for the summer and if they'd send me an application. *crosses fingers*

i have also decided that i'm not going to let the things that i don't understand, can't change, and don't have yet, bother me. there are reasons for these things, and i just have to accept the fact it's all a part of life. i guess what i really have to do is keep myself from thinking about these things. worrying never changes anything. i know this in my head, but i keep worrying anyway... i wonder if i'll ever really learn...

i was just telling a friend of mine how important trust is to me... how it takes a lot for me to trust people to begin with, but then when they break my trust it's close to impossible for me to trust them again... at least not for a long time. i wonder why this is. obviously, trust is important to most people, but i just seem to put a larger emphasis on it than some of my friends. anyway... that's just what's goin on in my head right now...

kate put this new link on her blog... "A Satirical Guide to Safety in Wartime".it's so funny... you should definitely read it!

on that note, it's totally my bedtime... so good night... sleep tight... love to all...

ummm... i would like it to be april 30th right... NOW! ugh... being home this weekend was so wonderful! i love my house... and i even love bloomsburg. i can't wait to get back there for the summer. i miss my parents, and my dog, and my bed, and... just... everything. on the downside, though, i might have to work at giant again. *whine* i was thinking about working at a bank, but i have to take a class, and i'm not sure how that would work with scheduling. however, there is a possibility of a night class which would totally work. i really hope that works out. (how many times can i say "work" in one paragraph?)

i'm a little frustrated tonight... about a lot of things... pretty much life in general right now. there are just so many things that i don't understand... so many things i wish i could change... so many things i wish i didn't have to wait for... *sigh* i guess i should just go to bed... tomorrow's another day...

seriously... isn't it friday yet? i feel like this week has gone on forever! i don't know why that is, because i haven't really had that much to do.

tonight i talked to my friend, scott again. it is so awesome that he and i can still talk like we always have after all these years and across so many miles. i was just thinking, tonight how cool it is that i'm still in touch with him in texas and my other friend, chris, in oklahoma. they are two guys that i just adore to no end. i am so thankful that i have them to talk to. we seem to be going through a lot of similar things right now, and it's just so nice to have people to talk to who know how i'm feeling. i'm so blessed by having you guys in my life... you are an answer to prayer... i just wanted you to know that. i can't wait til we get to see each other again... i miss you guys so much!!! ... and just so no one else feels left out... i'm thankful for all of my friends... you guys are the best!

and now it is time for bed... g'night!