so i spent all day yesterday and most of today outside at a soccer tournament in york. guess who didn't put sunscreen on her back? for some reason i didn't think i'd get burnt. wrong. so wrong. i'm so sore right now. and it sucks that i live alone, cause it's kinda hard to put aloe on my own back. *ugh*

the weekend was a lot of fun though. it made me miss playing soccer... even though i know beyond a shadow of a doubt that i'm in no shape to play anymore. it'd be fun to just play around though. i was really impressed by the over 30 and 40 year old teams. i doubt i'll even be able to run by the time i'm that age, let alone play in a soccer tournament. maybe i should quit bein' so lazy.

i can't believe tomorrow is august 1st. the summer went so fast. to be honest, i'm kinda glad that it's almost over. i'm getting tired of living alone, and i want my last year of college to start... so it can end... all i have to do is get through intro to stats and then soc. stats, which has been a challenge so far... and will continue to be, i'm sure. stupid math. who needs it?

this weekend went so fast... tomorrow's monday already... the only good thing about that is that it's one day closer to me going home on saturday. i'm really looking forward to being in bloomsburg again. it's crazy how much i miss home lately. it's probably just because i'm tired of being here. lancaster just isn't as friendly as bloomsburg. throughout high school i thought all i wanted to do was get out of bloomsburg, but over the past 3 years i've learned to appreciate it a lot more. it'll always be home...

i already have senioritis to the max, and the school year hasn't even started yet. i really hope the next 10 months go quickly.

on another note, this weekend went way too quickly. it was so great to get to spend some quality time with my kateness. saturday afternoon we laid outside for a while, went to the pool, made dinner for ourselves, and then went to t.j. rockwell's in e-town for some drinks. it was a great time. i miss her already!

tomorrow starts the second week of statistics... which means only 4 weeks to go. i cannot tell you how much i loathe math. i cannot wait for this class to be over! it's been pretty stressful so far, and it's bound to get worse. *ugh*

and i'm already looking forward to the weekend. it should be quite nice.

g'night, kids... much love...

i miss bloomsburg. i miss my parents. i miss maggie. i miss my friends. i miss my front porch. i miss my backyard. i miss my livingroom. i miss my bedroom. i miss my driveway. i miss it all...

i've decided that weekends should be 5 days and weeks should be 2. this makes much more sense to me. who wants to work 5 days a week and only have 2 off?!? it's unbalanced and just plain wrong.

tomorrow is the last day of my sociology class. the past month has gone so quickly (with the exception of this week). i can't believe the regular school year starts in 6 weeks. good grief! i'm kind of excited though. it's hard to believe, but this is my senior year. that's such a weird thought. in a little less than a year i'll be graduating from college and going off to graduate school somewhere. i don't know where the past four years have gone. it seems like just yesterday i was sitting in front of a fire near the hemsarth's pond with all my friends, talking about starting college. oh, the memories...

so tomorrow i finally get my own drawer at work (haha... i'm so random tonight). i'm quite happy about this, because for the past week or two i've kinda just been standing around doing nothing. it'll be nice to feel like i'm actually doing something useful. i'm working all day on friday, which will probably be a little stressful. the bank is rather busy on fridays since that's the day that most people get paid. hopefully i'll be at the drive-up. i don't feel quite as much pressure there since the customers aren't right in front of me. oooh! and i get paid! woo!

after work i'm heading home again. i have some fun plans for the weekend. it's sure to be a great time. which reminds me... i need to make a phone call...

anyway, i hope everyone is well! *hugs*

this week could not possibly go more slowly!!! argh!!!

"I've told you all this so that trusting me, you will be unshakable and assured, deeply at peace. In this godless world you will continue to experience difficulties. But take heart! I've conquered the world."
-John 16:33



much love...

happy birthday, shell!!!

last night the youth group did a "bigger and better" scavenger hunt. they start with a pencil, and go around to houses asking for something bigger and/or better than what they started with to (possibly) be donated to the water street rescue mission. my girls got a bunch of stuffed animals, a couch, and a grill. another group got a dryer. haha... good times. anyway... we can't take everything to the rescue mission, so some of us had to take stuff home. i took a set of livingroom furniture. originally i was only going to take 2 chairs, but i decided to take the couch too, since it was free and all. it's pretty nice stuff. the couch is a little worn, but it's comfy... and again... it's free. hooray for free things!!!

tomorrow i'm working from 8:45- 5:00 and then going home again for the weekend. i'm definitely looking forward to that. last weekend was so great... i'm hoping this one will be just as fun. i never thought i'd miss bloomsburg so much...

happy 21st birthday, ceejer!!!!

i'm a nerd. i miss bloomsburg already. i can't wait to go home again this weekend for the fireworks in millville. that's always a rockin' good time.

i hope everyone had a nice fourth of july. mine was quite lovely.... well, besides getting thoroughly burnt at the parade. you'd think after 21 years of having this skin, i'd know better than to sit outside in the sun for hours without sunscreen on. it was a really great day though...

i wish i could have stayed and gone to the fireworks in bloomsburg with sarah tonight. silly work. i miss my sar.

so i'm home for the weekend. two of my friends got married yesterday. it's so weird. i'm so happy for them though. they're the cutest! the wedding was great. i got to see a bunch of people from high school whom i haven't seen in a long time. and of course i got to see ceej, greg, shell, and boober... which is always a rockin' good time. i drug jay to the wedding with me. i don't think he had the best time in the world, but i was glad he was there. i'm not a big fan of going to weddings alone. it's no good.

after the wedding we went to the millville carnival and then out with some of jay's buds. those boys are crazy, but they're a good time.

i love bloomsburg...

i had a lovely surprise last night. jay came down to lancaster to go to a baseball game and i got to go with him. we had a great time. i even won a dozen roses.

i have great friends... life is good...

*sigh*... can't wait to get home this weekend...

happy birthday, markus carkus!

i officially quit my job at gadzooks tonight. it was awesome. i'm so relieved that i will only be working there a few more days. tonight my manager stood in the doorway of the store talking to a friend and her boyfriend from 5:30 until 7:50. yes, i timed her because this happens all the time. she definitely told me and my co-workers to work on shipment because she "shouldn't have to do it" and then proceeded to stand around talking for almost two and a half hours. i cannot tell you how angry that made me. i wish i was more assertive. i day-dreamed of telling her that i wasn't going to work anymore if she continued standing there doing nothing. i wish i could do things like that. i just don't have the guts. she wasn't very happy when i told her i was starting at the bank on the 27th. she told me i couldn't use her as a reference for future jobs. i wanted to tell her that i wouldn't use her as a reference in a million years because she is the most irresponsible, unprofessional person i've ever worked for, but again, i didn't have the guts. *sigh* maybe one day i'll learn to be more assertive.

on a fairly different note... i have to say i'm still frustrated with church. well... maybe not church, just some people at church. i cannot understand why these people think that women should not be in positions of leadership. there is nothing intrinsic about a woman that makes her unable to be a leader. this is the 21st century. we're not cave people. this shouldn't even be an issue. i also can't understand why these people get so upset about others' choice of clothing. evidently something as insignificant as clothing is more important to these people than caring for students. what kind of message are we sending them if we're arguing over wardrobe? i will say that there are other individuals at church for whom i'm very thankful (they tend to be the people who are more open-minded). so i'll try to focus on the positive aspects of church in order to keep myself sane. forgive my rant... i'm just so tired of close-mindedness.

i feel much better now, so i'm off to bed... g'night all... much love...

katie and i are soul-roommates.

last night before we went to bed we both put the same lyrics to "feeling this" by blink 182 in our away messages (without knowing the other one had done so). i would say we spend too much time together, but we don't anymore now that she's home for the summer. maybe our brains communicate silently over a distance. it could happen.

i just found out today that green day and jimmy eat world are playing in philly in september and i can't get tickets!!!!!! i'm so sad! katie and i thought maybe we could just get separate tickets and just stand together somewhere, but we don't know if they'd let us do that. has anyone been to a concert there before? if you have, let me know if you think we'd be able to do that.

on a very different note... i'm thoroughly frustrated and confused by someone tonight (and have been for some time). i'm just not understanding why things are the way they are right now. i'm usually good at figuring people out, but this person is quite a challenge. i really value their friendship... but i need some kind of reciprocation...

and now i need to stop thinking and go to bed. i hope everyone is well... much love...

from Nicholas Sparks' latest novel, True Believer...

"One day, you're going to learn something that can't be explained with science. And when that happens, your life's going to change in ways you can't imagine..."



the past few days have brought with them several unexpected joys... i have great friends... it's good to be alive...



i hope everyone is well... much love...

i can't find my brian regan cd!!!!