i'm a little frustrated tonight. it seems that i will never escape some aspects of my high school experience. maybe it's just me. maybe i just assume that things are going to happen this way because they always have for me. maybe i'm making it worse than it really is. the thing is, i thought it was going to be different this time. i didn't think there was going to be any tension, but there is definite tension. why can't we all just be mature adults? i don't understand. i wish i could go for a drive... i need a drive. but i don't have time.
(sorry this is a little vague... it kinda has to be...)

i'm also a bit stressed out at the moment. i just have so much going on. taking six classes is not exactly a walk in the park. on top of that i have youth stuff... which i absolutely love... i had the greatest time tonight... i love my girls... you totally rock! and then there's mark... what can i say... he takes a lot of time. hehe just kidding... i acutally wish i had more time to spend with him... there just aren't enough hours in the day!

all right... i think i'm finished complaining now... it's time for bed... g'night...