why is it that only former football players get special recognition for dying for their country?!? this makes me so angry. millions of soldiers die every day. why don't they get recognized? well, as the newspapers put it, because they didn't "walk away from a million dollar career". it makes me sick that this man's money is of more importance than the families that he, and other soldiers left behind. how did we get like this???

i have this habit of worrying about the future... my career, family, yada yada. i always want to know exactly what is going to happen and when. i often allow myself to become pretty stressed by all this worrying, but today i am reminded that God is in control and His will and timing are perfect. i read this passge from isaiah today...

"Why do you say, O Jacob, and complain, O Israel, 'My way is hidden from the Lord; my cause is disregarded by my God'? Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint"
-Isaiah 40:27-31

it's so comforting to know that my God is more powerful than i could ever comprehend... today i am going to rest in His arms, and in the truth that He is in control...

here's a good quote i found today...

"Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God's kindness: kindness in your face, kindness in your eyes, kindness in your smile."
-Mother Teresa

ugh... it's already sunday night again. what a bummer. i had a great weekend, though...

on friday afternoon katie and i went to the park to swing. we decided that no matter how old we get, we will never stop swinging! then on friday night i hung out with jess, eric, kyle, and mark from church. we watched "the bourne identity" at eric's house, then went to applebee's for half-price appetizers after 10. i'm pretty sure they weren't actually half-price, though. i never got to see the check cuz mark paid for us... he's a nice guy... despite all the "women are always wrong" comments. i really enjoyed hangin out with those guys. it was the most fun i've had in quite a while.

while i was at eric's on friday night, kate called to inform me that there was a half-naked drunk guy wandering the halls of our dorm. that's never really something i want to deal with, but especially not when i'm coming in at 2 in the morning. i was so paranoid... when i went into my room i looked under the beds and in the closets to make sure no one was in there. haha... i'm a dork.

after brunch on saturday, i went outside to do some work. it was so nice to be out in the beautiful weather! i actually got some sun, too! i know... it's amazing! later i watched "office space" with kate, bryan, kenny, sarah, and bryan. i love that movie so much. we had been talking about it a lot over the past couple weeks, so we decided it was time to watch it again.

today i went to church, took a nap, and was esentially useless the rest of the day. i have a lot of work to do, but i was completely unmotivated.

well, on that note, it's time for me to go to bed. g'night all...

ugh... rough day... i wish it would stop...

what a crazy day! it involved some crying (which i REALLY hate to admit)... but good things happened, and that makes me happy. i'm still frustrated and confused... but things seem to be going in the right direction. maybe it's because of that "good ol' irish hug" from niall.

an article on the new york times website gave me a little perspective tonight. the title of the article is, "Up to 12 Marines Die in Iraqi Raid on Base". what right do i have to complain about how my life is going right now? there are people fighting and dying for the freedom and peace of people they don't even know. how can i see that kind of suffering (especially after being so closely related to it at one time) and complain about my trivial discomforts? God, bring your peace...

my current status: tired and frustrated.

i've definitely got a "case of the mondays"... or maybe it's something more. who knows, but i don't like it, and it needs to go away.

i just checked out another link katie just added to her blog... hilarious. it's called, Book A Minute. you should totally check it out. you might as well just use the link i have to her blog and check out all the randomness she has accumulated. it's some seriously funny stuff!

i was just telling kate that today is such a "nap all day" day. i would LOVE to lay down for a nice long nap right about now, but sadly, i have a meeting with my advisor at 3 o'clock. meanwhile, i'm sitting here playing with silly putty. i'm seriously addicted. it's a problem.

ok, well that's all i'm thinking right now that's worth saying... if that, in fact, is worth saying... anyway, i hope everyone is having a great day!

30 days til i'm outa this place for the summer! good heavens, i cannot wait! i have soooo much to do in those 30 days, though... it's gonna be rough. i have an 8 page philosophy paper due the 6th, a 10 page scotish lit paper due the 29th, a 5 page lit paper due the 26th, 2 essay finals, a regular final and one more book to read. ugh! i will be so happy when this semester is over! i'm getting pretty stressed out... it's getting to the point where everything... and i mean everything... is hysterical to me. i laugh at virtually nothing for extended periods of time. ask the roommate... she knows.

at church tonight we were talking about hell... and what it is. the Bible describes it as a lake of fire and eternal separation from God. somebody pointed out tonight, that everything good comes from God, and since hell is the absence of God, there is NOTHING good in hell... forever. that's kind of a scary thought... boy, am i glad i never have to experience that...