18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

-Psalm 34:18

i hate feeling like i'm being used.


i hate feeling like i'm being left behind.


i hate feeling like i'm falling.


i hate feeling like i have no place to land.


i hate how much i miss the way things used to be.


i hate feeling like i'm the only one who misses it.


i hate feeling like everything's changing except me...

i'm having an "i miss old friends" day today. there's something so comforting about people who have known you a long time... i really hope i get to see these people soon... it's been way too long...

besides feeling very nostalgic today, i am stressed to the max with school. i about had a nervous breakdown last night when i found out that my project for research methods is going to be quite a bit more involved than i originally thought. i hate how i allow things like that to affect me so much, so i'm trying to just let it go, and trust that it will all work out. this is not easy for me. i'm good at holding on... not letting go... but the thing is, all i can do is my best... the rest is out of my hands...

on a very different note, mark sent me the link to this video today about 9/11... pretty heavy stuff... check it out (i only watched the first 10 minutes or so, but what i saw was very well done... better than fahrenheit 9/11, if you ask me)

on that note, i'm off to work... love to all...

I don't think I'm any closer now

Than I was at fifteen

I still don't know what I really want

Or how I really feel

Sometimes I think I've seen too much

Sometimes nothing at all

And sometimes I think I just forgot

What I was looking for

-The Cure "Ocean"