on a side note, i find it thoroughly amusing that the ad at the top of my blog is about valentine's day considering i said nothing about that horrible holiday that i loathe with all that is in me.

i was just laying on my bed looking at a picture of cj and i in mr. cughan's room during our senior year. i was happy then. what happened? i guess life happened. i wonder when i'll be happy like that again. maybe never. i thought life was tough then... funny how things you used to think were terrible problems become insignificant as you grow up. i will be happy again. it's not that i'm terribly depressed right now. it's just that it's harder to get through the day. it's probably more loneliness than pure sadness. of course, i think the two go hand-in-hand. i've realized, though, that happiness is a choice sometimes. sometimes life is really hard... it is for everyone... what matters is how you deal with it. decide to be happy and you will be.

wow... really wish i could delete many of my past blogs...